Today I finally mustered up the courage to wear a complete (off) white outfit. Even while dressing, I tried talking myself out of wearing it but I was firm in my decision. Would people stare? Probably, its Philadelphia and folks here LOVE to stare. Would someone say something negative? Possibly because opinions are like assholes, everyone has one! Would I fall apart and run home? Umm, no cause I wasn’t gonna go back home to change an outfit! So with anxiety churning in my belly I set out to work. When I got there, I whipped off my coat and did my best Alexis Carrington/Dominique Devereux walk into the office. And guess what? No one even batted an eye. I was sure a widespread epidemic of laryngitis must’ve hit the office but I received no negative responses. The only comment I got was from an attorney who I think is a little sweet on me. He said “Alright now! All white! You look like an angel!” I was too busy giggling like a schoolgirl to even respond!
At 42 I’m still learning how to be fully confident in all that I do. With professional help, I’m learning how to use those uncomfortable feelings to improve it. While my overall self confidence has changed significantly from the past, there are things I still need to improve on. My ultimate goal is to achieve a level of confidence where I can honestly say I don’t give a damn what people think!
Have a wonderful weekend!